Life is soo busy lately! New job, new city, new house…. new friends and schedule. I have tried to keep constant my art. It has been challenging.. not going to lie.
But I am fortunate to have been selected to be a part of a 3 woman show at the Gallery at WREN in Bethlehem, NH. The exhibit is titled “Intertwined Roots: Art of the Forest”
3 very different mediums, one amazing cohesive show! I will report back after!
People keep asking me if i am excited about the cards being released in a week. I censor my reply depending on who is doing the asking. I know that sounds less than authentic.
Let me explain.
I have learned through my studies that when you are on your ‘time line’ or the path that was laid out for you before you came here, you are in the flow. there is no attachment to the outcome of something. It just is.
I feel that way about these cards. Don’t get me wrong. I have much gratitude for the opportunity. I am thrilled that i can be part of the process of getting messages out.
But it isn’t me. Not really. I didn’t fight and push and try to make this happen.
That is what happens when you are not in the flow and hot surrendering to your timeline.
I did the work, I noticed what came up, I was quiet and let things unfold at their own pace. It took a LOOOOONNNGG time for these cards to see the light of day. I recognized it for the right pace. Many , MANY other times in my life something happened, that just felt ‘right’ and being the stubborn, impatient leo that I am, I immediately went to work to make what ever it was hurry up and I tried to turn it around to my own agenda. (because I am a planner and an achiever… and that is my default setting when faced with a road bump)
…and it fell apart and didn’t last.
Maybe it was suppose to fall apart, and nothing is meant to last.
But looking back, the feeling I get was that I intervened and tried too hard to control the outcome. I made a decision to NOT do this here. What came with that is no emotional attachment to the outcome.
Its kind of cool!
So while i may not be ‘excited’ about the cards being released. That in no way diminishes the love, joy and passion I put into them while I was creating them. That is and always will be there. And in no way does my lack of “excitement” mean that I don’t care about the cards and most importantly, the messages they can bring to people.
That is the MOST important part of this whole process. That is where my focus is.
My no “excitement” simply means i am not consumed with thoughts about the project and not agonizing about whats going to happen. Its all Good!
What i am excited about is what will be coming up next in my life. What is next on my path/time line.
I am on the lookout!
Fear of art. Haha
The Art of Fear.
The fear of creating.
Fear of failure.
Fear of being judged.
Fear of opening up.
Fear of not opening up enough.
Hmmmmm….. Whats your fear?