People keep asking me if i am excited about the cards being released in a week. I censor my reply depending on who is doing the asking. I know that sounds less than authentic.
Let me explain.
I have learned through my studies that when you are on your ‘time line’ or the path that was laid out for you before you came here, you are in the flow. there is no attachment to the outcome of something. It just is.
I feel that way about these cards. Don’t get me wrong. I have much gratitude for the opportunity. I am thrilled that i can be part of the process of getting messages out.
But it isn’t me. Not really. I didn’t fight and push and try to make this happen.
That is what happens when you are not in the flow and hot surrendering to your timeline.
I did the work, I noticed what came up, I was quiet and let things unfold at their own pace. It took a LOOOOONNNGG time for these cards to see the light of day. I recognized it for the right pace. Many , MANY other times in my life something happened, that just felt ‘right’ and being the stubborn, impatient leo that I am, I immediately went to work to make what ever it was hurry up and I tried to turn it around to my own agenda. (because I am a planner and an achiever… and that is my default setting when faced with a road bump)
…and it fell apart and didn’t last.
Maybe it was suppose to fall apart, and nothing is meant to last.
But looking back, the feeling I get was that I intervened and tried too hard to control the outcome. I made a decision to NOT do this here. What came with that is no emotional attachment to the outcome.
Its kind of cool!
So while i may not be ‘excited’ about the cards being released. That in no way diminishes the love, joy and passion I put into them while I was creating them. That is and always will be there. And in no way does my lack of “excitement” mean that I don’t care about the cards and most importantly, the messages they can bring to people.
That is the MOST important part of this whole process. That is where my focus is.
My no “excitement” simply means i am not consumed with thoughts about the project and not agonizing about whats going to happen. Its all Good!
What i am excited about is what will be coming up next in my life. What is next on my path/time line.
I am on the lookout!
Fear of art. Haha
The Art of Fear.
The fear of creating.
Fear of failure.
Fear of being judged.
Fear of opening up.
Fear of not opening up enough.
Hmmmmm….. Whats your fear?
I love looking at different trains of thoughts in the spiritual/metaphysical world and be the devils advocate sometimes.
A few years ago I saw a meetup in my area for a mediumship development group.
I was looking to network with energy workers in my area, I had my ‘tribe’ but most of them were an hour or more away. I was looking to expand my circle. I decided to attend.
It took place just down the street from me, in a lovely gathering room in a holistic business. After a few min, about a dozen or so people showed up. People of all different walks of life were there.
We all settled in. The gentleman running it gave his speech about who he was and what he hoped to achieve during this meetup. I got the indication that most of the people there had been a few times.
To be honest, I was checking out the people in attendance trying to figure out who was going to be my newest bestie!
I did hear him explain on his ‘rules’ to making contact with spirits on the other side…
“Always attempt to make contact inside. If you are outside, then you never know who you are going to connect with. This way you have control over the process”
WHAAATTTTT??????????”Let me control who and what comes in.”
You can control it???????? I had gone from picking out my new BFF to thinking WTF?! ..still trying to figure out how he could justify the belief that spirits could pass between realms will get completely stymied by a door? Do we need to make sure the windows are down too?
I couldn’t help myself, so I raised my hand and asked why.
First off,by the look on all my potential best friends faces, I could tell friendship was not on the table anymore.
The leader kept it together during my outburst questioning his directions. His reasoning had something to do with protection. He disagreed with me concerning consciousness being able to transverse building materials….. I let him have it, I still had a few hours there and it was his party after all.
The next part was a prayer for protection.
Ok, sigh, this is my biggest bugaboo. I truly wasn’t looking to start a problem. Truly I wasn’t. I just wanted to present my own opinion in order for the people to realize there was another school of thought.
I presented my view, which is something I learned in my years studying Shamanism. That protection, or the idea that protection is needed inherently has a fear base to it. Fear is a lower vibration, and like attracts like. In a nutshell.
That is it. I put my opinion out there. and was then prepared to go forward with the prayer of protection.
I was attacked. ATTACKED. It was funny actually. One woman, who had read “hundreds of books” told me, in a very loud voice, pointing her finger in my face, that i would be sorry, oh so very sorry if I didn’t hop on board the protection train.
The room was filled with fear.
If lower vibrational experiences came in, no surprise.
Believe what you choose to, but think before jumping on the protection wagon. If you can, from the beginning learn to transmute energy, change the vibration of it, you will never need to protect yourself and you will be able to deal with whatever comes your way!
You will be a superhero!