This is the time of year when many minds and libidos turn to relationships.

It probably breaks up the monotony of the long winters!

I would say about 70% of the questions I get in a reading with someone is about love and relationships at all times of the year. What is it about love that makes us so neurotic? So needing to control the situation?

Love is so intrinsic to our needs as human that it triggers the inner control freak in all of us

When will I meet that special someone?

Do they like me the way I like them?

Do they want the same things that I do?

Why haven’t I met someone?

Why do I keep meeting the same kind of person?

How do I know when it is time to leave a relationship?

The list goes on and on.

My belief is that most of the time you KNOW the answer to most of these questions. But getting the answers is not always the end all be all. 

Then there is the NOW WHAT?

Getting an Oracle or Tarot card reading about the energy surrounding a relationship (or lack of one…) can help you get crystal clear on what your intuition is already trying to tell you. Validating that nagging voice. Putting your fears to rest regarding what you think you need to do.

Supporting you and learning how to support yourself in moving forward in love.

For the month of February, I am offering a three card reading pertaining to the one question you have regarding love.

Click here for the details

I have written and erased, written and lost this post quite a few times. 

I would like to trash it and go eat dinner. 

And have a glass of wine. 

Red. 

But I just scheduled a news letter to go out in an hour and I linked to this blog post. 

The one that doesn’t exist yet.

I am crazy like that. 

I wanted to talk about the word Manifest.

The actions of manifestation and how they have become such a buzz word in the metaphysical world in the last few years. And how that buzz has morphed from the simple act of ‘manifesting something’ into MANIFESTING with a capital M as a benchmark or litmus for how spiritual you are. 

I am guilty of this myself. 

I have many stories of manifesting something. I use these stories’ to explain energy to people. It was a concrete way I thought. A way for some people to ‘get it’.

My funnest manifestation happened  a year and a half ago. I was moving into a new place and needed a sofa. 

I am a sofa snob. I am an interior decorating freak. I wanted, for this new space, a white, linen, down filled sofa, L shaped sectional. I started the hunt on line and in person. I wanted what I wanted. I resigned myself to spending 2k+. 

GULP

Then I heard a voice telling me to ask for it. 

I was slowly moving into my new place. All beautiful hardwood floors, floor to ceiling windows, white plaster walls (which I also manifested…) and I shrugged and thought WTH.

So I asked for a new white linen down sofa to fit my new space. I ‘heard’ what price? I laughed and said $300.00 

then I really laughed and continued on my way. 

The next day in the middle of unpacking I saw a vision of a consignment store that I almost never go to. I felt a push, so I got into my car and headed over. 

Not 20 feet inside the store there was my sofa. 

Brand new, just dropped off.

And you know what I did?

I hemmed and hawed.

It was DOWN. 

And slipcovered (cats…)

I felt an energetic slap upside the head.

I looked at the price tag. It was $299.99

It came home with me.

I know I manifested that. 

I find manifesting things soo very easy.

Am I spiritual? 

I like to think I am.

Am I spiritual because I can manifest thigs?

No

Am I able to manifest things because of my spirituality?

No

Anyone can and everyone does manifest their life. 

Being able to focus is just that… being able to focus.

Its rather like what use to be called a parlor trick.

There is little substance to manifestation. 

What?!?! 

No, Michelle,  it means you are in the flow. 

God loves you and wants you to be happy.

EVERYONE MANIFESTS THE LIFE THEY HAVE

(my unpopular belief if I say it out loud)

A truth in manifestations is that :

If it is meant to further you on your path( lessons to learn, people to impact, situations to get through) in this life, it will stay. If it isn’t, it will fall away. Or it is benign. My brand new, white linen, down filled sectional sofa for $300, I think is rather benign, neither helping or hindering me on my path. And there is absolutely NOTHING SPIRITUAL OR SACRED ABOUT IT.

So the next time you hear someone talk about helping you manifest $100, $1000, $10,000…. 

STOP

Think

Is this wrapped up in a spiritual blanket?

Manifest is energy. 

I am all about energy. 

Identifying it.

Moving it.

Transmuting it.

But my spirituality is focused more on who I am, how I walk through this life. The quality of the energy I put out. 

How I connect with the energy of every living thing.

My connection with the Divine.

My god really does not care if I have a white linen down filled sofa. 

This has been a hard blog post to write. For years I have lived balancing between two lives, on one hand I was the typical soccer mom (track actually) living in suburbia, 3 bedroom, 2&1/2 bath , 2 car garage colonial surrounded by  many other beautiful homes. The other life was on weekends taking shaman and other classes on spirituality and sometimes during the week I would be out with the Spirit Life Network finding and crossing over ghosts.   

Lets just say that the two halves of my life never really met.

My friends and neighbors, when I mentioned “going to class” on the weekends just assumed that it was an art class since they were aware that I am an artist.  I never corrected them . 

I was afraid. 

I was afraid of being labeled  I was afraid of people changing how they felt about me. About what they thought about me. 

I was essentially living an illusion. 

Which is either ironic or hypocritical depending on how you look at it since in my studies I was pursuing the truth and ripping away illusion. 

I started small. I opened the door a crack…..

I told my neighbor, a very good friend about what the class actually was .

Shockingly she didn’t faint or run away screaming!

She was actually interested. 

This gave me courage. 

I started mentioning it in passing to  some of the people in my life. And I can honestly say  that I did not have one bad response. 

 At this time, I actually started to integrate the message that i really isn’t  any of my business what other people think of me. I was being true to myself and my path and if others had problems with it, it pointed to their baggage , not a reflection of me.

I did find that more and more people started to come to me with paranormal or metaphysical questions. It was a nice feeling that I wasn’t seen as a  headcase. 

But even if it had gone the other way, and I was shunned by the people I cared most about, It still needed to be done. 

I was still not 100% out of the closet. The door was still only opened about 40%.

Fast forward to Face book. 

Most of my friends are on Face book. I have a love hate relationship with the social media outlets. 

(I’ll save that discussion for another post)

A recent job loss and some other shifts in my life have pushed me to expand my healing circle. I am use to working with and for the people who are closest to me.  Most of the people on my facebook page had no idea about my spirituality. And I was fine with that. People I just  interact with on line I  reasoned are on a need to know basis. In other words, I did not need them to know. 

I am not in the habit of proclaiming my beliefs. I keep them private. Its my right. right?

Well after designing this website I realized that in order to get the word out there of what I had to offer I had to get out there on a larger scale. 

Scary. 

You would think I would have learned form before. 

Clearly I do not learn my lessons so easily.

I took a deep breath that lasted 3 days and finally posted it. 

Again, the earth shattering  quiet. Only no unfriending going on (and really would that be awful?) and tons of positive  comments. 

Which had me realize 2 things. 1. More and more people are open to the idea that there is much more that they can see or prove than ever…and 2. It hit home (hard) that I got energy from others reactions to me. I know I need to shift out of this pattern, but how wonderful that I was able to learn a lesson in such an easy manner…..some lessons can be, shall we say…much more of a challenge!